Today is day 9 of not running.
Actually, it’s been 7 days since I’ve figured out how to do any cardio pain free…so stretching, rolling, and PT exercises are about all I can do.
Despite getting my endorphins on being a huge stress release and being completely devoid of it lately…I’d say I am handling everything really well.
So what’s the scoop on the hiatus from running? My knee was kind of poppy a few weeks back and I kept running on it because it felt fine running. But eventually it didn’t feel fine running. In fact, it eventually didn’t feel fine any time.
To be completely honest everything has been OFF the last year since April 2012’s marathon training cycle. I haven’t been able to put my finger on it all, but things just don’t feel right. I’ve tried to be cautious and not really push it, but it just feels like one little thing after another. I went to the doc who sent me to my fave Physical Therapy group and I’m finally, FINALLY, FINALLY working on the root cause of all of this.
Why? Because it takes a lot of time and effort and requires some time off running which I really didn’t want to do. But it’s time.
I’m trying to have a positive attitude about it and realize that by taking the time to get this right will be good for the future. I mean really good. Like, really start taking the time to train. Like really start putting together a real training plan. Like really start doing speed work instead of fearing it. Like you know, set an actual goal and achieve it, which honestly I have not really done since like….errr…uhhh….umm….18 months ago with my BQ. I’ve hit some smaller goals (like PR’ing) but not setting a really stretch-worthy goal and shooting for it.
And while this is very exciting and inspiring, the truth is, on a lot of days I mostly feel like this.
So I’m doing my best to put on my happy face and enjoy this for what it is – time to heal. I find myself grateful I wasn’t in any crazy good shape or anything so it’s not like I’m losing spectacular fitness, just some mediocre, fear-laiden efforts.